Three

Prologue for a homonymous work

It sucks when you don't have anything you 하고 싶은 게 없다는 게

want to do 진짜 뭣 같은데

I know it's pathetic to not have something as 흔한 꿈조차 없다는 게

common as a dream, I know 한심한 거 알어 다 아는데

"You said to do as I'm told, that it would all be 하란 대로만 하면 된다며

fine when I go to university" 대학가면 다 괜찮아

I'm the asshole for believing those words 그런 말들을 믿은

I live because I can't die 내가 이지 나 죽지 못해 살어

Agust D

So far away (ft. Suran)

The alarm clock rings. Get up. Put on your clothes. It's Spring. Wear cool clothes. No, with pastel colours. With short sleeves. Shorts. Maybe a skirt… No, not black. Don't you prefer pink or light blue? Yellow blouses are cute. Everything you wear looks good on you. We have to go buy you clothes so that you look cute. No, the one from last year is not worth it. It’s old-fashioned. Come on down for breakfast. Eat quickly, or you’ll lose your bus. Don’t eat that: better take fruit, you must eat healthy. Please remind me that this afternoon I have to go give your grandmother something, and don't get distracted like yesterday, that you forgot to remind me. Come on, go, you're late. Welcome to class. Did you bring your homework? Very good, always so attentive with homework. It shows that you are a worker. Pay me close attention, because I will not repeat this explanation. Hi guys, you have sent me the projects to do for today, right? Boy, you should be like your partner. She always delivers everything on time. Come on, let's get on with what we were doing the other day. I'm glad you understand, my dear. Oh, girl, I don't know what to do with him: he hasn't spoken to me in months. Do you think I should talk to my boy? He’s not mine, but… You know what I’m saying. Come on, you still have four more hours. Ah, but you chose to go to a different high school. It was your decision. Have you brought my homework? I like that you’re organized. You do well. Think that, when you finish this, the effort will be rewarded. You still have one year and six months left. Don't forget the work for next week. Congratulations, you have a 98 on my test. You will get a good grade in the evaluation. Come on, this is the last class already. Oh right, you still have one more hour left. Come on, girls, good luck. I know that the seventh hour is the hardest, but they have to make an effort. Have a good afternoon. Did you submit everything today? Congratulations on the note. Keep it up. You know that you have to get very good grades if you want to do the degree you want. You already know that we have got you a place at the university that is close to home. No, of course not: college is the best thing you can do. They will give you the highest degree. Well, I think you should start working in the summer. But that is not necessary, you can stay at home as long as you want. Go to class, come on, you're late. You’ll eat when you get home. See you at half past five. Guys, today we will move on to lesson six and prepare for the test. How was the class? Well, you will have to try to balance the institute and the Language School. This is what you want, right? Let's see, you have to do activities in the afternoon whenever you can, but these were chosen by you. You should be happy. Eat quickly, it's already six o'clock and you still haven't had lunch. Wait, I'm taking you to the gym. Ride faster. Try to get your leg further back. How was the gym today? Come on, take a shower, let's go for a walk. Get straight. Squeeze your stomach. Don't hang your head; it seems like you're embarrassed. Take off your earphones. You never listen to me when I speak to you. You always disconnect. Walk slower; you're leaving me behind. Have a light dinner, then you get fat and you're already pretty bad. Do your homework, but don't go to bed too late. Do you have an exam tomorrow? Well, study. Honey, it's already twelve. You should be sleeping long ago. Good night ... The alarm clock rings. Get up…

There are many voices. We hear them as one. It is a constant voice that does not stop. It gets inside each one of us.

We try to find a way out between the three of us, all the time. However, we never reached an agreement. We are too different from each other, even though we were born and raised in the same house and we have never been apart. Each of the three imagines such a different situation.

My older sister has a great facility, according to me, to make problems worse. Make the toxic bubbles bigger.

The alarm clock rings. Ugh, not again. Get up. Can't I stay a little longer? Put on your clothes. Ok, I'm coming. It's Spring. Thank you, the sun on my window had not made it clear to me. Wear cool clothes. Short black shirt, done. No, with pastel colours. Oh no. With short sleeves. Ok, yes, but black. Shorts. Ah, yes, not that. Maybe a skirt… No, unless it's black. No, not black. But why? Don't you prefer pink or light blue? Obviously not. Yellow blouses are cute. We could have a debate on it. Everything you wear looks good on you. Although it is true, I do not like to wear clothes with pastel colours. We have to go buy you clothes so that you look cute. I've had clothes for years and I feel cute in them, thank you. No, the one from last year is not worth it. Why? If it suits me ... It's old-fashioned. I don't like fashion either. Come on down for breakfast. I’m coming. Eat quickly, or you’ll lose your bus. I could choke if I eat fast. Do not eat that: better take fruit, you must eat healthy. This is faster to eat than fruit, and you have told me to eat fast. Please remind me that this afternoon I have to go give your grandmother something, and don't get distracted like yesterday, that you forgot to remind me. If you didn't remember it either, why is it my fault? Come on, go, you're late. Okay, okay, I'm going. Welcome to class. Welcome ... Have you brought homework? Yes, as always. Very good, always so attentive with homework. Thanks, I guess. It shows that you are a worker. Well ... Pay close attention to me, because I will not repeat this explanation. But say it now. Hi guys, you have sent me the projects to do for today, right? Yes, teacher. Boy, you should be like your partner. Don't tell him that ... don't compare him to me ... She always delivers everything on time. She just organized well ... Come on, let's get on with what we were doing the other day. The same thing again ... I'm glad you understand, my dear. Well, it is not so bad. Oh, auntie, I don't know what to do with him: she hasn't spoken to me in months. You stopped talking to him so that he would chase you because of your pride ... don't you think he has pride too? Do you think I should talk to my boy? You have never dated him. He can't be your boy… He's not mine but… You know what I’m saying. No, I assure you I do not understand. Come on, they still have four more hours. As if that weren't enough. Ah, but you chose to go to a different high school. Yes, we know. It was your decision. We also know it. Have they brought my homework? Yes, teacher. I like that you’re organized. You do well. Thanks teacher. Think that when you finish this the effort will be rewarded. When we finish… if we finish… They still have one year and six months left. Nothing, a blink. Don't forget about work for next week. We won't… Congratulations, you have a 98 on my test. Thanks, teacher. You will get a good grade in the evaluation. I'm sure you're going to give me a 90 for being the first evaluation. Come on, this is the last class already. The last one of yours. Oh right, you still have one more hour left. Thank you for reminding us. We had forgotten. Come on, girls, good luck. Thanks, I suppose. I know that the seventh hour is the hardest, but you have to make an effort. We always do it, they don't have to ask you. Have a good afternoon. We will try. Did you submit everything today? Yes, of course. Congratulations on the note. Thanks. Keep it up. You know that you have to get very good grades if you want to do the degree you want. Career ... You know we've got you a place at the university that's close to home. What if I didn't want to have a career? No, of course not: college is the best thing you can do. But ... They will give you the highest degree. Yeah, I know ... Well, I think you should start working in the summer. It is the only time I have to rest ... But that is not necessary, you can stay at home as long as you want. You know that's a lie: I spend the day away from home. Go to class, come on, you're late. As always ... When you get home you eat. Aysh… I'm hungry. See you at half past five. It's three o'clock… Guys, today we will move on to lesson six and prepare for the test. Woohoo… Exam… How was class? Meh, normal. We have an exam, again. Well, you will have to try to balance the institute and the Language School. I do, although it is somewhat difficult. This is what you want, right? Yeah… Well, I guess. Let's see, you have to do activities in the afternoon whenever you can, but these were chosen by you. I chose them… But I didn't choose to do five different activities all week… Including Saturdays. You should be happy. Should. Eat quickly, it's already six o'clock and you still haven't had lunch. As if that was my fault. Wait, I'm taking you to the gym. I'm very tired… Ride faster. I try. Try to get your leg further back. I fucking try. How about the gym today? Horrible. Come on, take a shower, let's go for a walk. I want to sleep ... Get up straight. I am straight. Squeeze your stomach. I cannot anymore. Don't hang your head; it seems like you're embarrassed. I do not lower my head. I'm just tall. Take off your earphones. But I am with my music. You never listen to me when I speak to you. You speak badly to me ... You always disconnect. Why will it be? Walk slower; you're leaving me behind. I want to do it, I don't want to hear you. Have a light dinner, then you get fat and you're already pretty sick. I'm not even hungry just to hear you speak. Do your homework, but don't go to bed too late. After all the jogging today ... Do you have a test tomorrow? Unfortunately, yes. Well, study. I'm going. Honey, it's already twelve. Oh really? You should be sleeping long ago. Yes, but I either sleep or study: not both at the same time. Good night Good Night. The alarm clock rings. Ugh, not again ... Get up ...

The smallest of the three, however, always offers solutions for everything: everything for which she benefits. Everything is fine for her.

She rings the alarm clock, but she is already awake and dressed according to the season: spring. She wears cool clothes, with pastel colours and with short sleeves. Maybe a skirt ... Light blue. He likes her yellow blouses. Everything she wears suits her well. She comes down to breakfast before anyone else. She is not in a hurry because she has gotten up early and she will not miss the bus. She has fruit and cereal for breakfast. Before she leaves, she reminds Mom of the things she has to do.

She always goes on the bus early to get there sooner, and she never forgets her homework. She is a hard worker and always pays attention. All the teachers use her as an example.

I don't know what to do with him: she hasn't spoken to me in months. Oh, too bad ... Do you think I should talk to my boy? Yes, of course, you have every right. He’s not mine, but… You already understand me. Yes, I understand you and I think you should insist more.

She holds out for seven hours, without complaining. Have they brought my homework? Ye, of course. She’s very well organized. She doesn't forget projects. Congratulations, you have a 9'8 on my test. You will get a good grade in the evaluation. That’s nice, thank you. Come on, this is the last class already. Oh right, you still have one more hour left. I know that the seventh hour is the hardest. Well, not so much. One can get used to it perfectly. Have a good afternoon. See you tomorrow.

Did you submit everything today? Sure did. Congratulations on the note. You know that you have to get very good grades if you want to do the degree you want. I know, I already have everything planned. Oh well, then you know that college is your ideal path. They will give you the highest degree. Yes, and I can't wait to go. I plan to work in the summer. It is a good idea. I already have offers. How proud I am, daughter… Go to class. See you later, dad. See you at half past five.

Guys, today we will move on to lesson six and prepare for the test. How was the class? Very good. Eat calmly. We don't want you to choke. We are late to the gym… Don't worry, I'll take you to the gym.

How about the gym today? Good mom. We're going for a walk. Let’s go. Have something light for dinner. Sure. Do your homework, but don't go to bed too late. Do you have an exam tomorrow? Yes, but I already know everything. Well done. Good night ... The alarm clock rings ...

There’s constant fighting in my house every day. I don't know what to do. I breathe on the sixth day in the afternoon, and start again on the seventh at night, until the next sixth. I walk and I walk, and I drag my older sister, trying to chase my little sister. We are not going in circles: it is more of a square. The little girl's path is straight. Always turning ten centimetres from the corners. Fixed dialogs. Speech bubbles that do not provide information. They just fill in. My older sister erases the straight tracks, and changes them into jagged lines. Shouts and exclamations are her phrases. Sometimes of happiness, other times of rage. None are like those of dreams, thoughts: lumpy, complicated to draw. So beautiful finishes. With so many hidden messages that nobody knows. So many details. So much passion in creating them. Clouds: nobody can reach them, but neither can they deny that they are beautiful. Dreams are risky. Luckily, I don’t have one. But that means I stay always behind the walls, where my only way out is up.